i’m not sure yet. i know that there is a purpose for me feeling so purposeless. not in a depressed way, but in a professional, life mission way. like, where the heebies am i going?
i wish i were….this is the quote that starts many conversations that i have inside my head.
wondering, what if, and “if i must, then maybe…”. i’m not quite sure what this trip around the sun will bring me. but i’m hopeful that i will find out soon.
try to become a permanent member at this job?
start my etsy shop & intentionally work every day on lovely things to remind others of goodness?
commute for a purpose? or change the location of the end point?
i feel wasteful with my day and life when i just drive.
the purpose of this drive (both physical, and mental) is not to make my life hopeless. i know that. but responsibility keeps me going.
so what is happening? i am leaning HARD on God in these moments, and He hasn’t decided that I need to know yet.
onward child, He says.
i’m a little bit worn, a LOT bit excited, and just a wee bit scared.
but change is here, and embrace it i must!
i know that i want to have the heart of an artist, whose purpose is to create art, and to obtain the grace of a poet, to know when to edit that art.
“For so, surely you will cast a light of gladness upon his onward journey, and contribute your past towards the building of that kingdom of love which links our earth to heaven.” Edward Carpenter
“Life is a series of experiences, each one of which makes us bigger, even though sometimes it is hard to realize this. For the world was built to develop character, and we must learn that the setbacks and grieves which we endure help us in our marching onward.” Henry Ford