my brain gets mushed into thinking that everything on the news is the only news.
sluggishly moping along
like there is no good out there.
i wander in and out of a pessimistic haze, unsure of my faith, too much noise,
too much hurt – intense pain for those whom i cannot help. i get depressed.
it happens more than it should to be honest.
regardless of my brain’s chemistry, i want to know more JOY.
i have more than enough love, experiences & laughter in my life to know anything but happiness.
i know my faith SHOULD be stronger than my worries, my fears, mine (others’) pain.
i know i am not alone in this warp of too much.
i cannot control everything that happens to me, only my attitude toward it.
most days, it only lasts a few minutes, maybe an hour.
something miraculous happens: i notice the joy.
i become engaged in being ALIVE THAT VERY MOMENT.
i pick up the details, i smell, i touch, i seek.
i am reminded that i have been given the gift of life every day that i wake up,
i need to grab hold of it with everything i’ve got.
i must seek the joy i want to wear.
hot diggity damn do i want to wear it out!
we’ve got one life folks, what message are we trying to sell, problem are we trying to fix?
what if we really LIVED in the moment, became happy to have BREATH, and sought joy in every turn?
we would hear joy, be joy, see joy, envelope the world in joy.
let’s find our joy, SEEK IT OUT. now go!